A Stolen Future

It’s taken me a long time to write this post. I started it in September and have come back to it time and time again. I just couldn’t find the words or express anything properly but I’m finally at a point where I think it makes sense. It’s then taken me a while longer to publish it because it’s still very raw and has left me feeling a bit vulnerable but I wanted to post it as I truly think it needs to be spoken about so much more than it is. To help people understand what it is like and for people to feel like they aren’t alone.

It wasn’t long ago I posted about us deciding to try for another baby. We were really lucky that we fell pregnant quickly. I know so many people who have struggled to fall pregnant and have had the stress of months and even years of trying. We were over the moon knowing we had fallen on so quickly and were able to give Luca the sibling he has been asking us for.

We found out really early, mostly because I just knew. I was one day late for my period and decided I couldn’t wait to find out any longer. It was the day we took Luca to Nostell Priory with his friend in the holidays and I can remember the joy and elation both Ant and I felt all day. We wandered around those woods with ridiculous happy faces and our little secret. After a week or so of knowing we started to make lists of names, Pinterest boards for nursery design and plans for bump photos.

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I’m back! 

It’s been nearly a month since I last posted and what a month it’s been.  My absence has been due to our house move which happened on the 1st April and we’ve had no internet since then. It’s actually been quite a nice break, I’ve had no choice but to just step back from the blog and because it was out of my control I didn’t feel too much stress around it really.

But I’m back now and I’ve got so much to write about and tell you. I can’t wait to share our new house with you all, I’m absolutely in love with it and thanks to my amazing family and friends the move went really smoothly and we had pretty much everything in its place by the end of the day. 12 people helping definitely takes a load off your shoulders. I will be forever grateful for their help, in fact that reminds me I still owe them a Sunday dinner as payment.

I’ve also got a long weekend break at the North East Coast to share with you and a restaurant review too. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg. I’m also thinking of starting a few new series as well.  Anyway I’m off to sit at my new breakfast bar, with a steaming hot cuppa in hand and try plough through the huge to do list that has resulted from no internet access, hopefully I won’t fall into the trap of procrastinating with online shopping for home-ware!

In a Nutshell – January 2017

We are one month into 2017 already. And if I’m honest it’s not been the best start to the year. January is always a totally crap month for us as we are skint from Christmas and the hundreds of family birthday’s in December, the weather is usually pretty bleurgh and it’s back to reality after the joy of the festive season. However, it’s not all doom and gloom, we did definitely have some highlights to the month. So here is how our January shaped up. Continue reading

Me & Mine – January 2017

I can’t believe January is done. We are already a whole month into 2017 and it seems to have gone in the blink of an eye. 

I don’t think it helps that work has been so busy for us both and so we have hardly seen Ant this month.  On top of that we have had lots of phone calls with solicitors and other people involved with our new house.  More birthdays and even a funeral. You can read more of what January held for us in my In a Nutshell post. 

We did manage to snap a Me & Mine this month even though it wasn’t planned. This was taken at my niece’s bowling party for her birthday. Abbie very kindly came a took a photo of us all together whilst Luca was playing with this car that’s actually a table booth thing. 
The Me and Mine Project

Why every mum needs some mum friends.

I’ll be honest with you, when I found out I was going to be a mum, I never really saw myself as a mum with other mum friends. The thought alone of going to mum & baby groups filled me with dread. I knew enough parents and had read enough blog posts to know how competitive and judgmental other mums can be.  And that’s just not me.

I have never been very competitive in any aspect of my life.  Even when I was good at high jump in school I never competed, it’s just not in my nature.   If you add to that the fact that I’ve never really fit in, even in my close friendship groups I’ve always been the ‘different’ one, then I’m sure you can understand why I had a strong feeling that I would be throwing myself into the lions den by walking through those playgroup doors. Who would do that to themselves? Continue reading

Me & Mine – December 2016

December for me is all about family.  It’s about spending lots of quality time together.  Arguing over charades and spoiling each other with thoughtful gifts.  Seeing out the previous year as a unit and seeing in the new one the same way.  December is always busy for us as it is full of birthdays and anniversaries but I don’t think I’d have it any other way.

The Dreaded Working Mum Guilt

When I fell pregnant I never realised that for the rest of my life I would be riddled with parenting guilt.  From telly watching (does he watch too much) to tooth-brushing (we’ve all forgotten to brush them a few times right?) and everything else in between.  Parenting guilt creeps up in the strangest of places.  I didn’t realise that everything I did as a parent, I would end up questioning. Every decision I made I would second guess. I certainly didn’t realise how guilty I would feel for being a working mum. Working mum guilt is the worst for me. Continue reading

Me & Mine – Nov 2016

I can’t believe it’s December already! The last month of 2016 is here. Another year is nearly over!

WHAT???? 

November has been a funny old month. We don’t really seemed to have done much apart from chase our tails. 

We’ve had sickness, extra shifts at work and lots of house stuff to sort. It’s been a pretty poop month to be honest but I don’t mind a bit of a lull in excitement before December. I’m all about the countdown to Christmas being jam packed with fun. 

In the mundane days of November though we did get to celebrate Bonfire Night with Daddy which was a treat as he usually ends up working it. 

We went to our local cricket club to see their firework display. It was a really cold night but the rum was cheap so I was more than happy. 

Luca loved watching the fireworks light up the sky before we walked home to snuggle on the sofa and warm up again. 

The dream house is happening.

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Back in July I wrote a post all about how I was longing for a home of our own. Longing to own our own bricks and mortar, especially after finding a new development that would be perfect for us.   I wrote all about how I was so hopeful it would all come together but also scared it wasn’t going to.

Well I can very happily say, in fact shout from the rooftops, that at the end of last week we officially reserved our plot on the new development and in about 6 months time we will hopefully be living in our new house. Fingers crossed. Continue reading

To Do List – Update

In 2014 I started my year with a to do list.  I have since done this every year and so in January I set myself 10 things to do.  Here is a quick recap of those 10 goals and where I am at with them;

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