Cooking Up Chaos – Noah’s Birth Story

When I first started this Cooking Up Chaos series I never really allowed myself to believe that the little baby nestled away in my tummy would ever really become a reality. I think it was probably to protect myself a little after our miscarriage last year, I didn’t want to let myself get too attached just in case something went wrong. I worried about every little thing the whole way through and really found it hard to enjoy it or connect with the baby like I did when I was pregnant with Luca.

But I need not have worried. At 40+4, that baby wiggling around in my belly decided to grace us with his presence and make all the anxiety and delightful pregnancy symptoms I experienced worth it.

I’d like to introduce to you all, our little boy, Noah. Noah was born at home, a few weeks before Christmas weighing in at 8lb 11oz after a 6-hour labour.

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There’s a party in the woods.

Luca turned six at the start of July and for months beforehand we spent hours searching for birthday party ideas.

I hate soft play and we go to enough soft play parties that I knew I didn’t want to add our own into the mix.  Some of the other ideas we had turned out to be ridiculously expensive for what you got and so we got a bit stuck.  Being pregnant I didn’t really want to host a party at our house this year either.

Then a friend of a friend suggested Greenman Learning.

Greenman Learning is a forest school local to us who hold all sorts of classes for both children and adults, and holiday schemes, but they also host parties too. It sounded perfect as we love being outdoors and for a summer party where better to be than in the woods?

We invited 15 of Luca’s friends to come and join us on the Sunday before his birthday and the weather was absolutely glorious for it. Continue reading

Cooking Up Chaos – It’s a Boy

So last week we went for our 20-week scan.

It was in the afternoon so we dropped Luca off at my mum’s as he didn’t want to come with us and headed to the hospital.  I was feeling so nervous beforehand, the worry of getting in there and something being wrong was quite overwhelming but Ant did a really good job of distracting me and keeping me calm.

We went into the ultrasound room and straight away the lovely sonographer showed us our baby’s heartbeat.  I knew it must be fine as I’d been kicked to death that morning but after losing a baby there is always that niggle in the back of your mind.

Once the sonographer finished her little chat with us she asked if we wanted to know the gender of the baby and after one final check with Ant, I told her we did.   She told us she would do all the checks she needed to and then we would find out.  As she did a full-length check of the baby both me and Ant turned to each other and smiled.  Ant mouthed to me, “I think I might know what it is.”  I was pretty sure I did too.  Continue reading

Cooking Up Chaos – Week 18

So I’ve been pretty crap at posting updates weekly (shocker!). So I just thought I’d do them more haphazardly when there are actually things to report as not much seems to change from week to week apart from the odd small things.

Since I last posted though I’ve started to feel the baby move around and now it’s much more frequently. It’s such a lovely feeling and now I am also much less worried all the time as those little kicks throughout the day are very reassuring.  I’m still getting the weird poking out things and wonky belly as well.

I’ve also started with the joys of hip pain and heartburn since I last posted, BUT the headaches have gone.  You win some you lose some right?  I still can’t drink tea or coffee and the foods I’m averse to seems to be slowly growing.  I’m still not craving anything though.  Well, that’s a lie, I occasionally crave something but that something changes each time. Continue reading

21 Places We Want to Visit This Summer

The summer holidays are fast approaching for us, Luca has less than a week of school left and then we have 7 ish weeks of uninterrupted time together. For once I am not working over the summer break either. I can’t bloody wait, whilst also feeling slightly nervous about how I’m going to entertain him for that many days (46 if you’re actually counting) without completely losing my marbles!! Ant has two weeks off late in August so at least I will have an extra pair of hands around then, but for the most part, it’s just me, the kid, the dog and the bump.

So to help get us through the holidays without too many complaints of boredom, I’ve decided to make a list of places we can go as I always find parenting so much easier when we aren’t locked up in the house. I’ve got both free and cheap days covered for when we aren’t so flush for cash and more expensive ones too. And I’m hoping to do lots of places we haven’t been to yet. The list started off quite small but as I went along more places kept springing to mind. So we probably won’t do all of these things but it’s nice to have a list to refer to if we need it.  I’ve got lots of options to choose from now, depending on the day, and most of them should be dog-friendly too.  Always a bonus. Continue reading

More Chaos Coming Soon

It’s with great joy that I can announce we are expecting another bundle of chaos. After our miscarriage in September, we are over the moon to have a little rainbow baby nestled away in my ever expanding belly. I found out 2 days after my 30th birthday and it’s been the best present I could have asked for.

It’s not been an easy journey to get to this point. There have been months of trying and even a few missed periods that cruelly got my hopes up, but this time it’s for certain. I did multiple tests to make sure. Why do we do that??

I’m currently about 13 +3 weeks pregnant but Luca has known since I was about 7 weeks and has been gleefully telling pretty much everyone he encounters. We didn’t really want to tell Luca so soon but he’d been feeling a little neglected as I’m usually outside bouncing on his trampoline with him or wrestling him but obviously some of that had to come to an end. I feel like he needed to know and he’s been very attentive and caring towards me since we told him.

After our miscarriage, I was feeling quite anxious and so we went for an early reassurance scan at about 7 weeks. They found a perfect little blob in there, exactly in the right place and with a heart beating away as it should be. And although it has reassured me that everything is doing as it should be, I was still very much aware that we weren’t out of the danger zone just yet.

We used the scan picture from our early scan to tell Luca and told him that we think there might be a baby in there but we weren’t sure yet and we need to go back for another picture, later on, to see if it grows into a baby. Just in case.

Luca’s response was pretty brilliant.  He said, “I think it’s probably just a grass seed stuck there like Ronnie had in his foot”. Kids eh?  And as you can imagine it’s kind of stuck and so “bump” is now affectionately referred to as Grass Seed.

We went for our 12-week scan in the half term and were delighted to see a perfectly formed little baby wiggling away.  I was so relieved we didn’t need the get out clause.  And was so happy to be able to show Luca a picture of his baby brother or sister that actually resembled a baby this time.  And now I’m starting to feel much more relaxed and actually beginning to enjoy this pregnancy.  Although not the delightful pregnancy symptoms so much. I have really bad insomnia and feel like I have a constant hangover. But as I felt pretty good last time I’m taking all these crap bits as the best signs that everything really will be ok this time around.

So, for now, I’ll leave it there, and keep you updated regularly as we progress until we get to the point of announcing Grass Seeds safe arrival.  Fingers crossed.

Deciding to try for another baby.

Having another baby has been out of the question for a while.  Where we lived before was too small, we just didn’t have the space for another person.  It was never an option and when people would ask when we were going to have another I used to get really annoyed. It was almost like a kick in the stomach each time as it wasn’t our choice not to have another. It just wasn’t possible.  We would often be told that “if you really wanted one you would find space” like we hadn’t weighed that option up. There wasn’t any spare.  We were already stressed living on top of each other and adding someone else to that mix was going to just make things a million times worse. More arguments when we got in each other’s way in the kitchen or when we couldn’t find what we needed as everything was behind 5 other things. So yes, a baby was always a no go. Continue reading

Luca is 5!

5 years old, that’s come around quickly. How on earth did Luca get to five years old already? It’s madness I tell you. I can hardly remember him being a baby anymore.

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At five years old Luca is pretty awesome.  I’m so proud of him and the little boy he’s turned into.  He’s kind, caring and shows lots of empathy towards his friends and others.  He’s doing well at school and really seems to enjoy going and learning new things. His reading skills are fab and recently we started to read some Roald Dahl books together at bedtime, which he loves.  So far we’ve read George’s Marvelous Medicine and The Magic Finger. Continue reading

The Dreaded Working Mum Guilt

When I fell pregnant I never realised that for the rest of my life I would be riddled with parenting guilt.  From telly watching (does he watch too much) to tooth-brushing (we’ve all forgotten to brush them a few times right?) and everything else in between.  Parenting guilt creeps up in the strangest of places.  I didn’t realise that everything I did as a parent, I would end up questioning. Every decision I made I would second guess. I certainly didn’t realise how guilty I would feel for being a working mum. Working mum guilt is the worst for me. Continue reading

14 tips to help your 4 year old cope with school

When Luca started school in September I added a reminder to my editorial calendar to write a post once we got to half term.  You know the kind, a little update on how he is getting on.  Well in all honesty, it’s been tough for all of us.   Luca loves school, he’s thriving in the learning environment, asking loads of questions about letters and numbers and pointing out shapes wherever we go. He’s doing really, really well.  He has even started to bring books home with words in already!  I couldn’t be prouder of him to say he is a July baby.  I’m so happy that, so far, he is enjoying learning. Continue reading