Cooking Up Chaos – Noah’s Birth Story

When I first started this Cooking Up Chaos series I never really allowed myself to believe that the little baby nestled away in my tummy would ever really become a reality. I think it was probably to protect myself a little after our miscarriage last year, I didn’t want to let myself get too attached just in case something went wrong. I worried about every little thing the whole way through and really found it hard to enjoy it or connect with the baby like I did when I was pregnant with Luca.

But I need not have worried. At 40+4, that baby wiggling around in my belly decided to grace us with his presence and make all the anxiety and delightful pregnancy symptoms I experienced worth it.

I’d like to introduce to you all, our little boy, Noah. Noah was born at home, a few weeks before Christmas weighing in at 8lb 11oz after a 6-hour labour.

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Moonlight Drive-In Cinema

I love finding unusual things to do as a family and when I found out that there was a drive-in cinema locally to us I knew I wanted to go.  Moonlight Drive-In Cinema is located at Diggerland in Castleford but they also have a site in Kent as well.

I’m a 50’s girl at heart, I love everything about the 1950’s, the cars, the fashion, the hairstyles.  So much so that we had a 50’s/rockabilly style wedding and danced (or should I say jived) all night to rock n roll.  It was my absolute dream.  And so the idea of a drive-in cinema really appealed to me.

We found out that they were showing The Incredibles 2 towards the end of the summer holidays and so as a last treat we took Luca to watch it from the comfort of our car.

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Luca is 6!

At the start of July, this little poop face turned 6.  I mean, bloody six, that means we are creeping closer to double figures now.  I’m not sure I can deal with this.  I want him to stay my gorgeous, loving, cuddly little boy forever.  Not turn into a grotty teenager.

This last year, in all honesty, has been a tough one.  He went through a phase of really not listening to what was being asked of him and both myself and Ant have shouted a lot more than we would like to at him.  He also started to backchat, developed a HUGE attitude and a temper to match it.  But over the past few months, this seems to have slowly sorted itself out and as I type this we are back to affectionate, funny, cheeky Luca.  The best version of him. Continue reading

There’s a party in the woods.

Luca turned six at the start of July and for months beforehand we spent hours searching for birthday party ideas.

I hate soft play and we go to enough soft play parties that I knew I didn’t want to add our own into the mix.  Some of the other ideas we had turned out to be ridiculously expensive for what you got and so we got a bit stuck.  Being pregnant I didn’t really want to host a party at our house this year either.

Then a friend of a friend suggested Greenman Learning.

Greenman Learning is a forest school local to us who hold all sorts of classes for both children and adults, and holiday schemes, but they also host parties too. It sounded perfect as we love being outdoors and for a summer party where better to be than in the woods?

We invited 15 of Luca’s friends to come and join us on the Sunday before his birthday and the weather was absolutely glorious for it. Continue reading

Me & Mine – July 2018

July has been such a busy month. Starting with Luca’s birthday and party in the woods, lots of days spent in my parents pool to make the most of the glorious weather we’ve been having, a doggy play date with Charli from Candidly Rhubarb, a gender scan, mini maternity shoot, school breaking up and then a trip to Stockeld Park and Fountains Abbey and finishing with a day sunflower picking.

It’s been a really truly fab month for us all and I’m hoping all the fun and frolicks continue throughout August too.  I’m really trying to spend lots of time with Luca before he has to start to share me, and I’m lapping up every second of him.  Plus he’s been absolutely lovely since school finished. Continue reading

Cooking Up Chaos – It’s a Boy

So last week we went for our 20-week scan.

It was in the afternoon so we dropped Luca off at my mum’s as he didn’t want to come with us and headed to the hospital.  I was feeling so nervous beforehand, the worry of getting in there and something being wrong was quite overwhelming but Ant did a really good job of distracting me and keeping me calm.

We went into the ultrasound room and straight away the lovely sonographer showed us our baby’s heartbeat.  I knew it must be fine as I’d been kicked to death that morning but after losing a baby there is always that niggle in the back of your mind.

Once the sonographer finished her little chat with us she asked if we wanted to know the gender of the baby and after one final check with Ant, I told her we did.   She told us she would do all the checks she needed to and then we would find out.  As she did a full-length check of the baby both me and Ant turned to each other and smiled.  Ant mouthed to me, “I think I might know what it is.”  I was pretty sure I did too.  Continue reading

Cooking Up Chaos – Week 18

So I’ve been pretty crap at posting updates weekly (shocker!). So I just thought I’d do them more haphazardly when there are actually things to report as not much seems to change from week to week apart from the odd small things.

Since I last posted though I’ve started to feel the baby move around and now it’s much more frequently. It’s such a lovely feeling and now I am also much less worried all the time as those little kicks throughout the day are very reassuring.  I’m still getting the weird poking out things and wonky belly as well.

I’ve also started with the joys of hip pain and heartburn since I last posted, BUT the headaches have gone.  You win some you lose some right?  I still can’t drink tea or coffee and the foods I’m averse to seems to be slowly growing.  I’m still not craving anything though.  Well, that’s a lie, I occasionally crave something but that something changes each time. Continue reading

Cooking up Chaos – Week 4 – 12

Welcome to my weekly pregnancy update.   This is quite a long one to catch you up over the previous weeks that have got us to this point but after this, I am hoping to just give you a quick weekly update to share with you how this pregnancy is going and the journey to us becoming a family of 4!!  It feels very odd writing that.

Week 4

So I found out I am pregnant today. I took a test really late at night as I had a spa day planned for tomorrow to celebrate my 30th. My period is late by a few days but I wasn’t really expecting to see those blue lines appear.  I had a feeling I might be pregnant but honestly just thought it was because I really wanted to be.  So those faint blue lines were such a lovely surprise.  I was home alone as well as Ant was working a late shift so had to wait what felt like ages to tell him.

Told a few of my friends at the spa today. It was pretty obvious something was amiss as I wasn’t going in the hot tub or sauna etc. Everyone is very excited whereas at the minute I’m just terrified I’m going to lose this one too. Continue reading

More Chaos Coming Soon

It’s with great joy that I can announce we are expecting another bundle of chaos. After our miscarriage in September, we are over the moon to have a little rainbow baby nestled away in my ever expanding belly. I found out 2 days after my 30th birthday and it’s been the best present I could have asked for.

It’s not been an easy journey to get to this point. There have been months of trying and even a few missed periods that cruelly got my hopes up, but this time it’s for certain. I did multiple tests to make sure. Why do we do that??

I’m currently about 13 +3 weeks pregnant but Luca has known since I was about 7 weeks and has been gleefully telling pretty much everyone he encounters. We didn’t really want to tell Luca so soon but he’d been feeling a little neglected as I’m usually outside bouncing on his trampoline with him or wrestling him but obviously some of that had to come to an end. I feel like he needed to know and he’s been very attentive and caring towards me since we told him.

After our miscarriage, I was feeling quite anxious and so we went for an early reassurance scan at about 7 weeks. They found a perfect little blob in there, exactly in the right place and with a heart beating away as it should be. And although it has reassured me that everything is doing as it should be, I was still very much aware that we weren’t out of the danger zone just yet.

We used the scan picture from our early scan to tell Luca and told him that we think there might be a baby in there but we weren’t sure yet and we need to go back for another picture, later on, to see if it grows into a baby. Just in case.

Luca’s response was pretty brilliant.  He said, “I think it’s probably just a grass seed stuck there like Ronnie had in his foot”. Kids eh?  And as you can imagine it’s kind of stuck and so “bump” is now affectionately referred to as Grass Seed.

We went for our 12-week scan in the half term and were delighted to see a perfectly formed little baby wiggling away.  I was so relieved we didn’t need the get out clause.  And was so happy to be able to show Luca a picture of his baby brother or sister that actually resembled a baby this time.  And now I’m starting to feel much more relaxed and actually beginning to enjoy this pregnancy.  Although not the delightful pregnancy symptoms so much. I have really bad insomnia and feel like I have a constant hangover. But as I felt pretty good last time I’m taking all these crap bits as the best signs that everything really will be ok this time around.

So, for now, I’ll leave it there, and keep you updated regularly as we progress until we get to the point of announcing Grass Seeds safe arrival.  Fingers crossed.

Me & Mine – May 2018

I’m only a few days late this month with our family photo.  I’m pretty proud of myself.

Although it’s a phone snap as that’s all I had.  May has been a funny old month, we haven’t really done much at all but I’ve felt completely run off my feet.  I think probably because work has been crazy busy.  We have enjoyed the beautiful sunshine that we have been having though.

our highlight of the month was taking Luca to his first gig.  He got tickets to go see Ed Sheeran for Christmas and the waiting was finally over.  He was so excited all day and I’ve never known him get ready so quickly when asked.  He couldn’t wait to get there.  Continue reading