It’s with great joy that I can announce we are expecting another bundle of chaos. After our miscarriage in September, we are over the moon to have a little rainbow baby nestled away in my ever expanding belly. I found out 2 days after my 30th birthday and it’s been the best present I could have asked for.
It’s not been an easy journey to get to this point. There have been months of trying and even a few missed periods that cruelly got my hopes up, but this time it’s for certain. I did multiple tests to make sure. Why do we do that??
I’m currently about 13 +3 weeks pregnant but Luca has known since I was about 7 weeks and has been gleefully telling pretty much everyone he encounters. We didn’t really want to tell Luca so soon but he’d been feeling a little neglected as I’m usually outside bouncing on his trampoline with him or wrestling him but obviously some of that had to come to an end. I feel like he needed to know and he’s been very attentive and caring towards me since we told him.
After our miscarriage, I was feeling quite anxious and so we went for an early reassurance scan at about 7 weeks. They found a perfect little blob in there, exactly in the right place and with a heart beating away as it should be. And although it has reassured me that everything is doing as it should be, I was still very much aware that we weren’t out of the danger zone just yet.
We used the scan picture from our early scan to tell Luca and told him that we think there might be a baby in there but we weren’t sure yet and we need to go back for another picture, later on, to see if it grows into a baby. Just in case.
Luca’s response was pretty brilliant. He said, “I think it’s probably just a grass seed stuck there like Ronnie had in his foot”. Kids eh? And as you can imagine it’s kind of stuck and so “bump” is now affectionately referred to as Grass Seed.
We went for our 12-week scan in the half term and were delighted to see a perfectly formed little baby wiggling away. I was so relieved we didn’t need the get out clause. And was so happy to be able to show Luca a picture of his baby brother or sister that actually resembled a baby this time. And now I’m starting to feel much more relaxed and actually beginning to enjoy this pregnancy. Although not the delightful pregnancy symptoms so much. I have really bad insomnia and feel like I have a constant hangover. But as I felt pretty good last time I’m taking all these crap bits as the best signs that everything really will be ok this time around.
So, for now, I’ll leave it there, and keep you updated regularly as we progress until we get to the point of announcing Grass Seeds safe arrival. Fingers crossed.