So as you regular readers will probably be aware I went back to work just over two weeks ago. I had not been looking forward to it as you can read here and here but it turns out all my fears and doubts were for nothing, so far it has gone better than I’d ever imagined.
My first day back at work was also the first day I would be leaving Luca at the child minders. That morning however went brilliantly, we were ready with time to spare and I when I dropped him off he went happily and I was brave and didn’t cry. Ok, I may have shed a tear or two but not until someone sent me a kind tweet, yes I’m looking at you Isadora Watts!! Apart from that little lapse though, I was composed all day. My worry that Luca may not settle at the child minders couldn’t have been more misplaced, he absolutely loves going and has bonded so well with one of his minders that I’m sure he’d rather stay there than come home some days. They take him on little trips out and play lots of games everyday. He couldn’t be happier. Even better is the fact that when I pick Luca up on an evening he is in a lovely mood, albeit very tired and is now in bed and asleep for 6.20!! The first time in his life he’s ever been in bed before 7, ever. The down side to this however, is that he now wakes up before 6 usually, even on a non-work day. Despite these new early morning wake up calls he is sleeping better than he was before (not perfectly but better) and he is in bed earlier too, leaving me more time to spend with Ant on an evening. Bonus!
Another positive to come from being a working mum is that I get to drink as much HOT tea as I like during work days. Plus I get a whole hour to myself as well (I may have spent one of these hours shopping this week, shh!). I do miss Luca a lot during my working days but I’ve found that when I do see him I really, really enjoy my time with him and truly make the most of it now its become even more precious to us. I truly thought I appreciated all my time spent with Luca but now we have less of it I realise I didn’t. That time away from each other has relieved some of that overwhelming responsibility I think us mums sometimes feel. I find I get less frustrated with him now for example when he’d rather spit his food all over the floor than eat it or will not stay still for his nappy change. These little changes have made a big difference to our days together and we spend so much time now having lots and lots of fun. I think when you are in your child’s pocket everyday you can, without realising it, become complacent about the time you spend together and it has made me realise that although we did have lots of fun and played together, it wasn’t as much as I thought. I’ve always had a very happy baby but now I make sure I include him in everything and make everything a game to play, like doing the laundry, and it’s meant now we somehow manage to spend even more time laughing and smiling together.